I’ve had a rough couple of days. I discovered that the cashflow issues I’ve been having for the last few weeks won’t be ending anytime soon without some major effort. I’ve been feeling sad. Today especially. I just broke into tears without provocation. And, no, it’s not that time of the month. I’ve been feeling snowed under even though the big winter storm isn’t set to start until very early this morning. I haven’t been motivated, social or clear. All I want to do is curl up in a ball and wallow.
Odd, since the week had a wonderful start. I had a most amazing evening with my man. A very productive Monday. A pretty productive Tuesday. Then Wednesday it was like everything decided to go “nah nah nah nahnah” at me.
I get like this sometimes. Thankfully rarely, but a few times a year I’ll feel like everything is dumping on me at once and I need some time to let it wash over me before I look for solutions and move forward. Am I alone? Don’t you sometimes just want sympathy without solutions?
The key, however, is not to stay there otherwise it becomes victim mode and that’s not fun for anyone, especially those that have to live with you!
So tonight I’m still not quite back but I am grateful. I’m grateful to my friends who brainstormed with me yesterday at lunch as to how to make some cash before Christmas. They even offered to help promote my eBooks to their own databases. I love my friends! My man came over today – much later than expected – but he always brightens my day even if it is a short visit. He too was very supportive and even offered to lend me money. Very generous and I think I’ll stay away from that solution for personal reasons. He was so sweet about everything that even if our time was short, my mood was lightened.
Then tonight I saw two things that made me sit back and say – no matter what, I have so much to be thankful for! The boy in the grocery store parking lot asking for change as the temperature plummets in prepartation for tomorrow’s storm. Even feeling squeezed myself, I gave him something. He may be a scammer, but I prefer to believe that he was truly in need. I’d rather give and be taken once in awhile than ignore someone who really needs it.
I also saw the aftermath of an accident on the way home. The car’s front end was completely toast. Thank you for my car, for my health, for my body intact – even with the neckaches I’ve been having lately.
Thank you for my warm house. My cats to keep me company. My wonderful family, friends and boyfriend. Food in the fridge. A computer to record my thoughts. Upcoming work. Sales made this week.
All things considered, I love my life.
Take stock and I hope you come to the same conclusion!
Be Beautiful, Be YOU and remember in all things, there is always good around the corner.
Love you, Christie